New job and a somewhat new chapter

It has been a while since I written and since then i gotten a new job. Which has gotten me more connections in the medical field. I 've also met new patienst that are a real pain in the ass, but some that are really nice. Though 80% of my patient are hispanic and my spanish isn't the greatest I find that some of the patient don't always want to talk to me cuz they don't know me or cuz of my spanish. My mom's house has been renovated from the outside and look really nice. And I finally got a new window, which i know is silly to get excited about, but my window has been broken for 10yrs or more. And i'm still confused about a this friend that i have special time with but have developed a crush. I don't want to tell him about my feeling cuz of fear of geting shot done.

Panic

Have you ever had a panic attack while your at work and wonder what the F. Well Right now that is what i'm experiencing right now cuz my friend seems to think that when I blog and read it come my body down woth the way im a workolic. And I must say that it is working a a little. To panic panic attack are such a pain in the butt. There is no reason to have one today cuz I've been in a good mood. So why of all days do i feel like this? Cuz it's drinvif me crazy not knowing.

JOBS MARKET

When looking for work it can be very hard when we live the economy that we live in. Some parts of wonders what started this ecomnic crap. I mean I have a job but it never hurts to look. On the radio I just heard that in England and France they are hiring like fire is right on their tail. I mean if I think that the job market is getting a little better but it's not like it use to be. And a little advise to students that are just graduating school. If teachers tell u your going to make a butt load of money with what career you choice right after school they mean in the far future not right away. So happy job hunting!

Sick of the fights

It has been 2 days since the last time I spoke to my lil brother who is only 18. It seems that along the way from middle school and now we have just gotten farther apart. I remember a time when we use to do things together & just be able to talk without getting into fights. But now we just dont get along. I sometimes have to play dad cuz he seems to walk all over my mom. And I wish I didn't but the things that he do makes me have to jump up a& put him in his place. But I know in reality that the only person that has ever been able to keep that boy in check was my dad. On Sunday we got into another one of our fights where he again took it to far and even laughing while i cried. As he was doing that I told him that he was sick. From there I wrote him a letter stating all my feelings. He has yet to talk to me about the letter. So for the most part we are in non speaking terms. Hopefully, he comes to realize that he needs to stop being so angry and start living and being such a heatful person cuz if he's not careful it could comsume him in the worst possible way.

Wanting to Move & siblings

For some 20 somthings out there some of them get to live on their and not have to deal with there sibling but then their are the one that deal with them no matter what. But thre are people like me that still live @ home out of the goodness of there hearts & because they don't want to hear the mom complaining " YOUR LEAVING ME" or " HOW R U GOING 2 SURVIVE WITHOUE ME" tend to feel the guilt of staying home to help out. Well, I'm 22 and able to live on their own but I stay mostly out of fear of leaving my mom home alone cuz she doesn't drive yet & my brother is always in this sour mood to the point that my mom refuses to ask him anything cuz to put is simply he acts like a jackass. Anyway my younger brother who is 18 says he an adult but whenever to treat him like an adult he goes why do i have 2 do that or thats not fair. Every freaking time I say this he " U want to be treated as an adult well that mean having adult responsiblities & acting mature, P.S Life isn't always fair". Sometimes I want to smack him on the head cuz the simplist things go right over his head. He Still thinks I dont know how to take a battery out of his car. Well let him think that cuz he's going to get a real surprise if he gets me angry cuz his car is under my insurance and name.

Computer Problems

I know that everyone has computer problems but after awhile when it's a continous problems it starts to be a pain in the butt. Anyway I just spent the better part of an hour taking out a virus on a Vista. Let me tell u Vista Sucks so much and this is the computer @ work. But thank GOD that it's not my computer cuz I would of uploaded windows 7.

Going Out

Have you ever gone out with a guy and expected to have fun. Well that is what I expected and let me just say that the outing was a BUST. I've never in my life have meet someone that isn't imaginative & expects u to be in the mood for lets just say things and they don't even get u in the mood first. I'm not trying to be mean really I'm not but after awhile u expect things to get better or for them to put a little effort. So now I wonder if there something wrong with me or maybe just him. You know what scratch that it is him.

JUNK

Many people over the years end up inquiring a few stuff as the years pass. But Very few will actually get rid of the stuff that is no longer used or broken. To have things that isn't working or of no use to you is pretty much a waste of time and space. Unless that object has a special meaning to you it should just be donated( best thing to do by the way) or just dump it. Every couple weeks I go through my things to c if I really want it anymore. But my mother is completely different from me. She has this radio that she keeps in the living room that hasn't been working properly for around 10 yrs. I suggested donated and damn she chewed my head off. She said it could be fixed & I said well it been 10 yrs so when will u fix it. She gave me this glare that could of buried me 6 ft under. Anyway the point is that if u have things that are of that u don't use or is broken just get rid of them cuz chances r your never going to use them ever again. Harsh but true.

HE

If there is one thing I hate that would doing things @ the last minute, especially if that has to do with finanial Aid. I for one have a brother that just asked me last night while I was having a stomach virus to help him with his finanial Aid that is do in tomorrow. Then when I ask him Y he waited till the last minute he goes :Hello I had 2 jobs and school." Then I would say hello what about all the mondays u had off so that I could of help u. But no he goes and pulls a low blow and says "well u weren't helping mami finanially, I'm the one that had to get too jobs." When he said that I had to keep from running to punch him cuz he don't know about a lot of crap.He don't know what I do cuz he's not with me or mami. He doesn't want to spend time with us. He the one with an attitude problem. He's also the cause for me high blood pressure. And I had spoken to mami bout him getting 2 jobs & she said that she never asked him to do that. If I remember correctly she asked him to quit countless times cuz of school. Too me he misunderstands to many things. And he makes me so mad when he takes low blows like that cuz he thinks he knows everything when he don't. He acts like he knows me but he doesn't cuz he don't ever want to spend time. I know he's caring but he is to childish to even know the real world if he just goes through life without learning.

Work

Have you ever gone to work and wondered "why I'm I really here" Sometimes this comes to mind and I wonder if what I do is really what I want to do. I see people or rather hear people say what they do isn't what they wanted to do in the first place, but just fell into it. In all honesty I would much rather not be one of thoses people that wonders the rest of their life. So hopefully I'll have an empathy and realize what I really what to do.

Pants and belts

Whenever I go out, I try not to pay much attention to people around me expect for the important things in life. Anyway today I went to the mall with my mom walked around and looking. Well later we got hungry and grab a bite to eat. Well as we were seated I started eatting my food when all of sudden this guy gets up and I see his butt. All I could do was gasp and be like "Why is it always me" . I some how have a magnet for these things. And it always makes me angry that guys walk around with there pants half falling off. Is it so hard to get a pair of pants that fit or a belt. I mean theses guys must think they look sexy but to me they look a hot mess. One if theses days I'm going to scream "Wear a BELT!!!" LOL.

The Last Song

I will admit that I like to read books. Books hold in it different world that have yet to be explored. So last weekend i bought The Last Song from Nicholas Sparks, who by the way has awesome books. Anyway I finished the book in 7 days and it was the best one yet. It basically about a girl named Ronnie who is shipped off to her dad's for the rest of summer and finds love and heartache. Just reading the book made me kinda relate the character in some ways. But it was such a more touching books than the rest of his other books. If you haven't heard of this author or just don't remember just check out his website @ NicholasSparks.com and u'll find the trailor to some of his books that became movies and the list of books that he has written.

A night Out

The average person that goes out usually may go out to dinner, movies, bars or clubs. Well for the few that include me that don't like to drink or are into the club scene, there's not much to do were i live. For instance me & a friend went out to get our nails done, which took forever. Then we went out to dinner. Doesn't sound like anything was wrong so far. But when we went to go to the movies they already started. They didn't have any late viewing. So from there we went for a drive and started looking for places that were open that didn't include a bar. We finally ended up finding a 24 hour Walmart that was 5 towns over from where we live. From there we took goofy pics and texted them to people. So in the end the night wasn't a total lost from what other people would do. Thus u can have fun without drinking.

Health Care

Yesterday a change was made in the health care Insurance industry. Now people will have more excess to insurance. So far I dont know what to make of any of it. I'm not sure if things will get better or what. Anyway, insurance companies have always gotten me mad because I try to get certain medications for people and they end up being denied. What's sad that lead up to getting more insurance for people is that it took someone dying. That is so sad.

Cheating

We have all heard the stories of Tiger Woods cheating and some of us have wondered what the hell was going through mind. Well today I was driving and the radio started talking about cheating. Some listener called in saying that people who cheat on there on spouse do because they don't love them and then some of them say that they cheat because they don't love them but because they were confused. All I had to say to that comment to that comment is I want a divorce. Because if your going to cheat then who's to say that your not going to do it again. I don't care if u say I love u baby or what. The thing is you shouldn't of done it in the 1st place. And if u did love your spouse then u wouldn't of done it. But for all the couple that can go back to there partner & forgive and forget great for u. But my point is that if your in a relationship with a person that is cheating on you maybe it time to move on to someone that will appreciate u more and really know what the term commitment means.

Time

Time is something that most of crave for, whether it for school, work, or home life. But in reality it it something that is very hard to come by. We as people have so much to do in one day that it's nearly impossible to fit it in, to the point that we become so obsess with time. And when we obsess on time we become so stressed out that it just damages other parts of our life. So for people that stress over time, including myself why don't we take a breather an experience what like has to offer at the moment and just live life.

Water

Everyday people drink water from all over the world. But for people that live in well developed countries they would never give water a second though. What most or some people may not realize is that everyday in poor developed countries they struggle to get clean drinking water. Water is not something that is easily attained for everyone. People in poor countries have to drink contaminated water that could kill them easily, whereas in richer countries they have the techniology to purify water. Only 2% of the world is drinkable water,whereas the rest salt water or just plain dirty. So hopefully people that read this come realize that something as little as water should not be taken for granted.

Plastic Surgery

Everyday in America people are getting plastic surgeries, whether it be because their unhappy with themselve or by some horrible accident that happen. But for all those that get plastic surgery for the case of wanting to look even better looking & to attact more people. Then all I have to say is get a life. I mean come on if you look fine and everyone says u look find then chances are that u dont need surgery the enhance something that u already have going for you. Then there the people that become so obsess that they denie they had it done. I mean look @ heidi montag. Now she look a hot mess. She looked so much prettier b4. Another thing that annoys me is that there are doctors out there that will continue to let people have these surgeries even though they have a problem. They need to stop it cuz they r hurting them more if they allow them to go through with it. Now I'm not saying that plastic surgery is a bad thing. All I'm saying is that some go reason for surgeries & there r some dumb as ones.

Missisippi

Today on the radio I heard that a school down in the state of Missisippi canceled a school prom because a girl wanted to go in a tux with her lesbian girlfriend. So now a bunch of kids wont be able to go to their school prom all because the school board thought that it was wrong and cuz girls are not allowed to come school with girls. Let me just say that it a bunch of bull crap. I for one if I were that girl would ask the school board where is it in the rule that it says you can't go to prom with the same sex. I say the students should make there own prom somewhere else and say screw the school board for their lame excuse. They are just prejudice and need to enter this century.

Life

There are people that grow up never having to know what hard work is really like and grow naive to what life is really like. I for one look at these people whether I'm watch them on t.v or in real life and think "have they ever really experience life in the eyes of someone that doesn't have a lot money." The reason I bring this up is because I was watching this show last night and thought these people have been given almost everything and still act like teenagers. I understand that they may have not grown up with there parents or had the love that some other people that aren't rich have had, but these were grown adults acting a hot mess. I have meet people that were born with money and act really rude. But then I've meet people with money and act normal. I just hope for the people that were born with everything learn like the rest of us that life is not easy, but hard work.