New job and a somewhat new chapter

It has been a while since I written and since then i gotten a new job. Which has gotten me more connections in the medical field. I 've also met new patienst that are a real pain in the ass, but some that are really nice. Though 80% of my patient are hispanic and my spanish isn't the greatest I find that some of the patient don't always want to talk to me cuz they don't know me or cuz of my spanish. My mom's house has been renovated from the outside and look really nice. And I finally got a new window, which i know is silly to get excited about, but my window has been broken for 10yrs or more. And i'm still confused about a this friend that i have special time with but have developed a crush. I don't want to tell him about my feeling cuz of fear of geting shot done.

Panic

Have you ever had a panic attack while your at work and wonder what the F. Well Right now that is what i'm experiencing right now cuz my friend seems to think that when I blog and read it come my body down woth the way im a workolic. And I must say that it is working a a little. To panic panic attack are such a pain in the butt. There is no reason to have one today cuz I've been in a good mood. So why of all days do i feel like this? Cuz it's drinvif me crazy not knowing.

JOBS MARKET

When looking for work it can be very hard when we live the economy that we live in. Some parts of wonders what started this ecomnic crap. I mean I have a job but it never hurts to look. On the radio I just heard that in England and France they are hiring like fire is right on their tail. I mean if I think that the job market is getting a little better but it's not like it use to be. And a little advise to students that are just graduating school. If teachers tell u your going to make a butt load of money with what career you choice right after school they mean in the far future not right away. So happy job hunting!

Sick of the fights

It has been 2 days since the last time I spoke to my lil brother who is only 18. It seems that along the way from middle school and now we have just gotten farther apart. I remember a time when we use to do things together & just be able to talk without getting into fights. But now we just dont get along. I sometimes have to play dad cuz he seems to walk all over my mom. And I wish I didn't but the things that he do makes me have to jump up a& put him in his place. But I know in reality that the only person that has ever been able to keep that boy in check was my dad. On Sunday we got into another one of our fights where he again took it to far and even laughing while i cried. As he was doing that I told him that he was sick. From there I wrote him a letter stating all my feelings. He has yet to talk to me about the letter. So for the most part we are in non speaking terms. Hopefully, he comes to realize that he needs to stop being so angry and start living and being such a heatful person cuz if he's not careful it could comsume him in the worst possible way.

Wanting to Move & siblings

For some 20 somthings out there some of them get to live on their and not have to deal with there sibling but then their are the one that deal with them no matter what. But thre are people like me that still live @ home out of the goodness of there hearts & because they don't want to hear the mom complaining " YOUR LEAVING ME" or " HOW R U GOING 2 SURVIVE WITHOUE ME" tend to feel the guilt of staying home to help out. Well, I'm 22 and able to live on their own but I stay mostly out of fear of leaving my mom home alone cuz she doesn't drive yet & my brother is always in this sour mood to the point that my mom refuses to ask him anything cuz to put is simply he acts like a jackass. Anyway my younger brother who is 18 says he an adult but whenever to treat him like an adult he goes why do i have 2 do that or thats not fair. Every freaking time I say this he " U want to be treated as an adult well that mean having adult responsiblities & acting mature, P.S Life isn't always fair". Sometimes I want to smack him on the head cuz the simplist things go right over his head. He Still thinks I dont know how to take a battery out of his car. Well let him think that cuz he's going to get a real surprise if he gets me angry cuz his car is under my insurance and name.

Computer Problems

I know that everyone has computer problems but after awhile when it's a continous problems it starts to be a pain in the butt. Anyway I just spent the better part of an hour taking out a virus on a Vista. Let me tell u Vista Sucks so much and this is the computer @ work. But thank GOD that it's not my computer cuz I would of uploaded windows 7.

Going Out

Have you ever gone out with a guy and expected to have fun. Well that is what I expected and let me just say that the outing was a BUST. I've never in my life have meet someone that isn't imaginative & expects u to be in the mood for lets just say things and they don't even get u in the mood first. I'm not trying to be mean really I'm not but after awhile u expect things to get better or for them to put a little effort. So now I wonder if there something wrong with me or maybe just him. You know what scratch that it is him.